It’s been almost 2 weeks since my last post, but there’s been nothing really going on. Job wise, nothing new at all regarding the closing sometime next year. I feel like my life is on hold—knowing that my job will end, but not for a year, so I don’t want to make any major changes, purchases, etc., knowing that change is coming. A year seems like a long time and I don’t want to look for work until right near the end of my employment so I can collect my severance, bonus, etc. It’s really a weird position to be in, with that long to wait until the office closes. In some ways, it would be better if the closing was in 2-6 months—at least I would have a better time frame to work with. But with 12-14 months—and the way the company moves, maybe longer—there’s really nothing I can do right now except just continue to go in to work. I’m sure that as time goes on it will be harder and harder to remain conscientious, but for now, I’m fine. I really should be thankful for the long notice so that I can get some bills paid down and prepare myself as much as possible for the future.

Manatee County is having a Job Fair in October, and I initially thought about going to it, but then I thought what’s the purpose—I don’t even want to get a job now because I would lose out on my severance and bonus. And I may still be employed at this time next year when the next job fair comes around.

Tracy lost another 4 pounds last week, up to 57 in all, and counting. I lost another pound, down to 159, with just 11 more to go to reach my 148 goal weight.